I spoke to my cousin last night. Wait, I mean, I chatted with her on facebook.  I forgot no one uses the phone anymore. What is a phone?  A phone is a dumb piece of equipment that is used for status and dull entertainment.  I hate my phone. I can only use it for, reading a book, finding out the status of my twitter trends, playing games, texting and reading the news. I can't use my phone to call because it doesn't work.  So what is the purpose of paying T-Mobile 75 dollars a month for unlimited calling, texting and data? What is the point, when you can't even use the phone to make calls?  

So anyways, I was chatting with my cousin who is a natural Blonde. She does give blondes a bad rap. She's like the stereotypical blonde; dumb, big boobs and lots of fun.  She is a half and half, you know mixed race, like half Black and half White.  But she is no Hallie Berry. 

She asked me if I am dating. I told her, "No", but I am.  Why No? She still thinks I am straight.  I never told her the news that I am gay. It is much easier to let her believe I am straight. Why?  Because then, I have to go into detail and scientific data why I am gay and the gene pool which I came from. Again, she is a typical blonde.  

I told her, I am not dating because I don't believe in marriage. As my cousin, she knows this. From a child, I never believed in marriage. I came from a home with a mother and father, who are still together. But at what cost?  My mother is a witch and my father is a nice man.  My brother and I wanted my father to marry a nice and kind woman, but his heart was and still is with my mother. I think, my father is into S&M.  And the my mother is my birth mother.

When I look back on there marriage, it can make me vomit.  If this was an example of marriage, I don't want any part of it.  

My blonde hair cousin lives in Florida and only loves Black people. She hates White people and wish for their death. She believes White people are the enemy of this world. Her father is white (German and Irish) and her mother is Black. She loves both of her parents, even her White father.  Again, the girl is not bright.  As a family, she's our entertainment. We laugh before she opens her mouth.  So, anyways, she started to date the Black guy in Florida because it seemed that he was the ONLY Black man in Florida.  You think so, after all the crap he put her through during their 3 relationship, and still didn’t get laid. I told her that there were make Black men in Florida, but she didn’t and still don’t believe me. She believes that, she needs to be with a pure African Black man in order to be accepted in the Black race. Again, she’s my cousin.  I hate to tell her the bad news, “There are no pure, pure people in the world today”. You will think, she knows this, since she is mixed herself.  Most of my family including myself are mixed.

So, we were talking about this marriage thing.  She needs to get married, so she can lose her virginity. My family is old school. So, when she asked me about marriage and I just told her that I don't believe in it; she believes I am still a virgin; which is far from the truth. 

I can honestly say I have slept with 45 to 50 women in my short sexual life.  I had to make up for lost time and I don't have any STDs.  Am I proud that I slept with a lot of women? No.  It's what it is. I was going through some stuff in my life and trying to deal with life, love, sex and God.  I figured if God made me into a strange nasty disgusting creature, I should have all my fun and then die.  Now, I have a different outlook on life.  I do.  

One person asked me, (since I'm a Young Adult writer) if I'm a good role model for teenage girls? Due to my lesbianism and sexual acts.  I told them and I am tell you, I am not a role model. But, if teenage girl want to look up to me, then let them. I tell the truth about my life and give teenage girls my bad and good examples. I listen, I feel and learn from my fan base. I love them and they love me. If I am their role model, I hope they can learn from my mistakes. Mothers forget to be role models for their daughters, so Brit, Paris, Lindsay and Snooki become a role model to them instead.  I believe, I'm better then Brit, Paris, Lindsay and fat crack head Snooki.

Anyways, we were talking about marriage. I read an article about an unhappy marriage.  To think about it, what is an unhappy marriage? I have learned and felt that the unhappy marriage articles and advice is BS.  No one can tell you how to feel or what should do in your life.  When people focus on stupid an article about the bad signs of a marriage or of dating, they tend to mess up their own marriage with laws that should never be introduced.  

Each relationship is different and one should not judge how you should act or feel.  The only advice I have for a happy relationship is communication, loyalty and honesty. If we followed these three words in our hearts, we will create a better world.  

So to me, marriage and relationship advice is BS and brunch of nonsense. Why would you give permission to a person who you never met, to tell you want to do?  

But, when you follow an article about advice or read a self-help book, you are being the stupid sheep who's following a leader who's full of BS. 

I have been dealing with my sexuality all of my life, since I came from an
ultra-religious family.

In my present life, I have come to terms that I am a lesbian and
I proud to be who I am. As a woman told me, I am a Professional Lesbian.

Most of my life, I have tried to hide the fact of who I am. Since I came
out of the closet, my life has been enriched with friends, lovers,
self-worth, self-esteem and love for my neighbors. I love being who
I am and proud of it. I always wonder if straight people are proud
to be straight. Who knows? I should ask a straight person. I wonder
what they will say.

Homosexuality is the person, but unfortunately people only think
of the act or the bedroom scene, so funny, because you don’t need
a bedroom to have sex.

For me, I had sex:

* In front of a crowd
* In a pool at a friend’s house
* In the bedroom of my house
* In a movie theatre room of a person’s house
* In the movie theatre
* In a hot tub
* In a car (A Honda FIT) (if you’re fan of my podcast, you will know this)
* In a office
* Online
* In a club’s bathroom (Most of my one-night stands)
* In a parking lot
* Outside

See, the GLBT community is just like the straight community.
THE ONLY DIFFERNCE IS: we love the same sex.

That's it!! So why is a concern for most people? I don’t get it.
But, some comments can be hurtful.

For example, on twitter, a guy told me, that if he raped me,
I can be straight. WHAT? So getting raped by a straight man will
cure my gayness? So killing a gay man will cure his gayness?
And now, you are telling me, Homosexuality is a disease?
How can Homosexuality be a disease?

Disease:

–noun

1. a disordered or incorrectly functioning organ, part, structure,
or system of the body resulting from the effect of genetic
ordevelopmental errors, infection, poisons, nutritional deficiencyor
imbalance, toxicity, or unfavorable environmental factors;illness;
sickness; ailment.

2. any abnormal condition in a plant that interferes with its
vitalphysiological processes, caused by pathogenicmicroorganisms,
parasites, unfavorable environmental,genetic, or nutritional factors, etc.

3. any harmful, depraved, or morbid condition, as of the mind
oversociety: His fascination with executions is a disease.

4. decomposition of a material under special circumstances: tindisease.

–verb (used with object)

5. to affect with disease; make ill.

---- http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/disease

If the dictionary is correct, Homosexuality is not a disease.

Lifestyle:

–noun
the habits, attitudes, tastes, moral standards, economic level,
etc., that together constitute the mode of living of an individual
or group.

---- http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/lifestyle

So homosexuality is not a disease or lifestyle. It’s just who I am.
For me, if homosexuality is a lifestyle, give me week and I will be
straight. I was a vegan for a month and then I smelt a WhiteCastle
hamburger. The vegan lifestyle was gone with one bite.

The world always put Church, God, The bible and Gayness in one pile of
nonsense. Now, I love the bible and I believe the bible is inspired by
Jehovah God himself. He allowed some men to write down his thoughts in a
book called The Bible.

In The Bible, Jesus states the two greatest commands:
1) Love your God with all your heart, even if your God is L. Ron Hubbard
or Luke Skywalker.

2) Love your neighbor as yourself.

So if we love God and love our neighbor, why do we have so many
conflicts in Christian societies? I don’t get it. The cruelest people
who hurt our social structure are in Christian countries. I love God and
I go to church every Sunday. I read the bible to gain more understand of
God’s viewpoint on matters and read examples on how God dealt with a
situation.

God is a God of love and understand. Look at King David and his undying
love for Jonathan. In the bible, King David loved Jonathan more then a woman.
King David also committed murder, allowed his daughter to be raped by her
brother and did a lot of wrong doing, but God loved King David. God loved
King David so much that Jesus (God’s Son) was born in King David’s family line.

The point I am making is we as a society needs to stop the hate because it’s
so stupid; protesting for Prop 8, Yes to Marriage and so on and so on.
Why should it matter who I slept and spend my time with? Why do people care?

My feelings is, straight people may have very very boring lives, so they
to hate the gays so they can have meaning in their lives. Too wordy.
In a nutshell, some straight people are bored out of their minds and
need a release from the bore.

On my Face book page, a friend posted a link about the GLBT community
in Uganda. Uganda is so Christian, that if Jesus Christ stays in Uganda
for a while, I bet they will kill him because he is not being Christian
enough. I do believe Jesus Christ, Our Lord and Savior, started
Christianity, right? You know, sometimes I am slow.

Please view the videos. It’s amazing how Christians can treat another.
If Christianity is filled with so much hate, why is God called the God of Love?

http://www.sexualminoritiesuganda.org

http://www.sexualminoritiesuganda.org