This is the oldest riddle in life. When something is in front of us, we do want it. But, when we can't have it, we want it more.
Why?
I don't know, but it's true. I remember when I first met Kathleen. It was at the Older Lesbian Single party. She was cute and there was something about her. You know when you have a feeling about someone who you can't understand. That's Kathleen, she's a mystery. She has curly long red hair, tan skin and acts like she is high society, but down to earth. Meeting her, you wouldn't think she was a published wealth lesbian author. She's kind and wonderful, but takes control. I love her to death, but remember I said, when we can't have it we want it more.
Kathleen was head over heels in lust (not love) for a woman name W. I knew W very well. W was my ex-love, Sharon good friend. The true was, I hated W for a while. I couldn't stand her. My ex-love told me, she was in love with W and I was her last choice, since W had a girlfriend. Through, I ex-love, W gave her some crazy advice about my relationship with Sharon.
So, think about this, Katleen wants to go out with W and I can't stand W. How can I be around W, since I can't stand her. Looking at her made me sick, but I was hurting too.
Lesbians are known for talking, just like the women on The View. We talk about each other and other people, but we are still family.
W found out how I felt about her. She talked to me and found out, Sharon lied. It just goes to show, you need to go to the source of the information instead of the hear say.
Anyway, Kathleen wanted W in the worst way, but W was dating K. K is a wonderful person with life and crazy mixed in. She reminds me of a person who would go to a Buddhism temple to chant, search for the meaning of life, start a company and go to party. I can see her having business meetings at The Cash, while conducting important business. W is more structured and I can totally understand.
So, Kathleen wanted her, but couldn't have her; which made W more desirable. Me and W, we're good friends. Sharon is history.
Anyway, it's happening to me. All this time, the girl didn't want to see me and bring me anywhere, but since she had to leave for business, I'm on her mind. Crazy.
Why do we torture ourselves this way? I don't get it, but we still do it. Why can't we desire the thing want in the moment, until it's gone. It just proves we need to live in the moment and desire the things we have. I know I have a problem with regret. When I have something, I wonder if there is something better on the other side. I have learned to stop it and just be happy with what you got. Because you will be search for the next high and never be content for the important things of life.
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