WTF?

I can't believe this. I'm in another car accident. WTF? I don't get it.  But, anyway.  I was suppose to go out on a date yesterday. It was your normal movie date. 

I wanted to see Public Enemy with Johnny Depp.  I love that man. He can be my child's father all I need is the sperm.  But, the girl could not go on the date, she had to work late.  Totally understand, but got me to think about my life. 

Since I have been dating, I lost myself.  What do I mean?  Before, I was seriously dating, I used to do things on my own without anyone.  Monday, I went home and relaxed.  Tuesday's was always movie night, when I treat myself to a movie and dinner.  The rest of the week, I would go to the gym or do anything I want. 

Since, I have been dating, I got into the habit of asking first and then do. If the date or girlfriend was not able to make it, then what should I do?

Yesterday, I went to the movie without her.  I enjoyed myself.  I didn't think about anything or any person. It was me, only me. 

I forgot how to have fun by yourself. Just you, thinking about life, love and you as a person.  I was at the movies, writing in my book, dreaming about have Johnny Depp's child and my future. 

I don't know what the future holds for me.  I don't care about relationships or being alone.  I have friends and I'm working.  I'm happy.

My friends are all in this relationship crap.  As I was talking to friend, I was ok being the hoe of Phoenix.  Just having sex with different women.  The game does get tried, so you relax and then start again. 

Being the hoe, I didn't have to deal with emotions, feelings or anything like that.  Just be safe and happy. 

I'm going to cancel my membership with www.match.com and just go with www.tangowire.com. 

I just want to be happy and alive.  I just got a poster with the help of God.  The poster is New York City with the Twins.  I remember always going into the Twin Towers.  Before moving to Arizona, I was supposed to work for ILX in the Twin Towers, but I moved to Cowboy Country instead. 

I was suppose to died in Twins, I don't know.  My friends did and I do get sad about that. But, it taught me to live life to the fullest and be happy. Just to live life.

So remember, just live.